“Dear Gaza” Poem (Video)

 

Dear Gaza,

I’m sorry

 

Dear Beirut,

I still love you like an arsonist

 

Dear Venice,

When that glassblower put his lips to

the glowing pipe

and I followed his breath into

an ornament

I understood grace

 

Dear New Orleans,

You gave me swelter and melody and

staircase after the longest winter of my life

You are where I forgave myself

 

Dear Boston,

I found the bird already dead

Crooked nest scattering

the pavement

and for days all I saw

was that constellation of bones

 

Dear Aya Nappa,

I cannot hear your name

without thinking war and ship

and two moons before coastline

 

Dear Tripoli,

It was whiplash

It was awful month

It was season of flinching

I won’t be coming back

 

Dear Rome,

When I think of my future self

She is walking your piazza

wearing something yellow

 

Dear Wichita,

I remember the summer songs on the radio

The car rides through the backbone

of your highways

I remember corn fields and pregnant sky

and always a thunderstorm

 

Dear Gaza,

I’m sorry

 

Dear Ramallah,

Thank you for the applause

Thank you for the seltzer water

the tableh player

the 3am tomato and bread

Thank you for the balcony

 

Dear Dubai,

I forgot a scarf

a silver ring

a tube of lipstick

and courage to make a mistake

I found the ring

The rest you may keep

 

Dear Aleppo,

Forgive me my litter

my uneaten rice

my abundance of light bulbs

Forgive me my bed soft and warm

even in January

 

Dear Baghdad,

Twenty six years and you still

make me cry

 

Dear Doha,

With you I am always dreaming of

starlit eels and honey water and swans

bathing in fluorescent sky

I miss those colors

 

Dear Istanbul,

Marry me

 

Dear Dallas,

I bought polished pebbles from

your mall kiosks

and pretended I was Aladdin

turning the soil over

and gasping

 

Dear Gaza,

I’m sorry

 

Dear Beirut,

You are cherry end of cigarette

You are pulse and tunnel

Freckles and siren

How can you fit so much?

 

Dear Norman, Oklahoma,

No one calls me Holly anymore

I blink slept woke wanting fairytale hair

for breakfast

loving boys with quarterback hands

and suburban smiles

 

Dear Las Vegas,

I’d rather not

 

Dear Brooklyn,

I came to you tumbled and spun

I came to you with 62 books

and the mistakes I’d gathered like splinters

You showed me where to sit

 

Dear Dublin,

Someday

 

Dear Damascus,

Nothing is as dangerous

as an unlit match

You taught us that

 

Dear Paris,

By beauty I meant that bridge

Those clouds and the legs my brother and I

dangled over the water

 

Dear Jerusalem,

Only you know what I am capable of

 

Dear London,

When I didn’t speak

it wasn’t because I was ungrateful

I was trying not to cry

 

Dear Gaza,

I’m sorry

 

Dear Manhattan,

I left a part of myself in that nightclub

like some paper crane with a beating heart

She is crumpled and sleeping

Do not wake her

 

Dear Bangkok,

I ate your fruit salted

Bare fingers peeling back skin

for shrines of gold and sugar

 

Dear Beirut,

I bruise as easily as you do

We are both anemic veins

and unbrushed hair and survivor’s

guilt

 

Dear Gaza,

When I come to you

it will be summer

Scorching sun and a music to the

shoreline

You’ll ask me

‘what took so long’

and I’ll tell you where I’ve been

 

Hala Alyan is a Palestinian-American poet

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: